Thursday, August 04, 2005

something has shifted in me

"Something has shifted in me," I told my manager today. "My unconscious now believes, This place is different than the others. Old resentments and vigilances are dissolving."

"So now do you feel in integrity?" he asked.

I paused a moment, to check my body for the answer.

"With my teams and product unit, yes. With the company, no. My ethics & values diverge from the company's." We sat in comfortable silence for a moment. Sun streamed through his window. He was reinstalling World of Warcraft onto his new computer from several CDs -- "This takes forever with the patches" -- and pushing all the binder clips on his desk into a small pile. I was leaning back on the couch, all ten of my fingers wriggled in among the pokey-suction-frobby things on a ball that sticks wherever you throw it.

So what does that imply, I thought.

"The first thing I can see to do," I said, "Is to bring me, my work, and my teams into shining integrity with my ethics. Become the change I want to see in the world." He nodded, then spoke thoughtfully about his 13 years at the company, what integrity was, why he does feel in integrity with the company.

It was exactly the right level of conversation. A great use of my one-on-one time.

4 comments:

Just Me said...

Wow! You have conversations like THAT at work! At our place, it's more like 'sign up to our culture or get out'. Not very conducive to open conversations....

Scott said...

You got spammed too. Once more for me and I'll turn off anonymous comments. Don't open the website. I did a search on the URL and it looks like one of the refinance spams, and in this case probably fraudulent. I'm sure at the very best it's loaded with spyware and tracking, so you or anyone else opening the link will get you more spamming.

Rachel Rutherford said...

Thanks, Scott.

Feliz said...

This is so true. In the Flight of Buffalo there is a quote which suits perfectly here I think - "Your organization is a reflection of what you accept!"

-Jyothi